So you may or may not have noticed…but I haven’t really been blogging anything deeply personal this year. It’s not you, it’s been me. Things are better now, not perfect, but oh so much better. I didn’t really want to talk about this until I felt like I was confidently on the other side of things, but now I’m ready to share. I’ve been depressed. Actual, diagnosed by a doctor, seeing a therapist regularly, depressed. I’d never been depressed before so I didn’t really see it coming. And I didn’t know when to ask for help. I’m just so thankful that eventually I did. Medical professionals are the bomb diggity you guys. And so is sunshine. Which is hilarious that now it’s basically winter again and I’m finally feeling better. Oh well! At least I’m ready to tackle the coming storm. I’m sure eventually I share a lot more detail, but for now I just wanted to say that it happened and I have a whole new view on how we treat mental illness in this country. AND more importantly, how I think about it.
Three things I’m now checking in with myself about weekly (as suggested by my therapist who I am so excited to be checking in with monthly and soon quarterly instead of weekly or every other week!). 1. Sense of purpose. 2. Social support. 3. Hope for the future. It’s crazy because right now these are all amazing but I can point to specific times over the past three years where any one or all three of these were out of place and I was absolutely spiraling.
In other HUGE news, we’re moving to the West Loop! Into a high rise building with a door man…for the first time in my life. We’ll be walking distance to our gym and my “office” and I’m really excited for a fresh start downtown. (I’m pinning away on a new inspiration board for this apartment if you’d like to see.) It feels like a lot of things are coming together and we’re on the verge of amazingness. I can’t really begin to tell you how excited I am for everything that 2015 is going to bring.
What else is going on… I turned 26 last month. I have four weddings left which will bring my 2014 total to 39 marriages documented. I’m devastatingly behind on album designs and submissions, but super on top of editing. (No clue how that works out, but I’m just trying to keep moving forward). I hate that I’ve forgotten to post everyone’s 2013 anniversary photos. Wil and I went to Miami over Labor Day (my first trip in five years without taking an SLR and/or blogging about it) and I actually relaxed more than I have in what felt like ages. I’ve booked a boat load of incredible weddings for next year and can’t wait to work with these amazing couples. I’m planning an “Empty the Bar” party — basically the opposite of a stock the bar party. My biggest goal right now is to shoot a wedding at the Plaza Hotel. I can’t stop watching the new Taylor Swift video.
I appreciate you all! And I promise there are oodles of pretty pictures coming your way (and a lot more heartfelt posts) coming soon. XXOO
images from the insanely talented Simply by Suzy. I will always treasure these images in our little Wicker Park abode.